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Broken

Everything around me is broken, worn out. I can't afford to fix or replace them. These things cause me to be broken as well. The anger over them not working is bottled up inside until it explodes outward. Ever since I gave up on life because it seemed too hard, this seemingly simple life has been so difficult as well.
It makes me want to give up. Completely. Just end this useless life right here and now. It's the same things every day. I never, ever get ahead. Only behind. Always. I would like to settle in the middle, but that doesn't seem to be good enough. Obstacles are put in my way that I cannot pass. Again and again. I'm so sick of this shit.

Within This Shell

Anymore, I feel like a media-absorbing robot. Just sitting back and absorbing it all around me. All day, all night. The internet started it all. I began getting online at school. Then once I got access at home, I eventually stopped going all together. The few friends I had disappeared. Then the monthly checks started. One of the first purchases I made was a DVD player. Then they fueled my DVD collection. The media helped me shut out all my emotions. I just couldn't take getting hurt again after my mom passed away. I became desensitized. I'm ashamed to say that if my dad passed away anytime soon, I would only care about how I would get my media without him to drive me. I'm no longer human...

Currently Watching
Teen Titans - The Complete Second Season (DC Comics Kids Collection)
By Scott Menville, Greg Cipes, Khary Payton, Hynden Walch, Tara Strong, Ron Perlman
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Xanga Premium

Wow. I've been given a free 20-some-day trial of Xanga Premium. Neat. I doubt I'll upgrade though. I'm really liking the new LiveJournal features available to me now that I have a mobile phone: voice posting and text message posting. :)
Gotta go already. See ya.

Currently Gaming
Sims 2
By Electronic Arts
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Oh hey, I'm back...

I thought I would stop by here while I was online... so what's up? Check out my new 4shared folders. :)
My dad took pver the living room TV, so I'm pretty much stuck in my room all day. I really can't wait to get my check on Tuesday. I really have my eyes on getting that $30 Virgin Mobile phone. I'm too damn shy to actually talk to people most of the time, but the voicemail and text messageing would be nice. And I could voice post to my LJ again.
I better go. I have a pile of DVRings to watch. See ya. :)